Today, we had our ultrasound to make sure the baby is ok. AND HE'S SO FINE!! I'm so excited. He was measuring big (67%) and intrauterine growth retardation is one of the main things of concern. His lungs and stomach looked great which are also of concern. So, hopefully, things will be just fine. The doctor says he will induce at 39 weeks if we wanted (which would be nice to know the day of delivery!) We got to see a 3D ultrasound (LOVED IT!) Little Baby #2 is so adorable. He has a lot of hair, big chubby cheeks, and a perfect little button nose (seriously, I could tell by the very high tech ultrasound:) I love him already. Thanks to everyone who expressed concern for us! We appreciate your friendship!
Speaking of love; can I just say I love Sean so much too. I know most people who see me probably think I'm a nut case (which I am) but I appear to be stressed out 100 percent of the time (usually the case) but I still find time to enjoy my little fussy bugger! One of the greatest things I can say about being a mom is that I can never ever second guess that child's devotion and love for me. He loves me! I hope that I reciprocate those feelings. I get so caught up in trying to "fix" everything that I forget just to let him be a baby. He does not have to give up his bottle, pacifier, and say 100 words before the next baby is here. It will be just fine. I actually didn't really understand what "mindfulness" was until Mike gave me a seminar about it last night:) Just kidding. he does like to reiterate all of his amazing intellectual findings and I mostly just snore away. But this time, I actually listened. I've always thought of it as just thinking about something (like Heavenly Father) or acknowledging it but if you really are aware of the present moment then you will not dwell on the past or worry about the future- you will just feel hope that you can accomplish whatever it is you need to do at that moment. So, when Sean cries instead of going to bed right away it's not the end of the world, he will not get off of his schedule so much that he'll revert back to newborn stage and never sleep again. It will....be ....ok! IF I could really just be mindful more often, I think I would be a more peaceful person.
I think I will straighten my house, watch Planet Earth, and go to bed!