Saturday, May 16, 2009

I Love My Boys!

Sean had his first experience with water balloons. I am so mad at myself for not thinking of this before. He loves balloons and LOVES (obsessed with) water. Put them together and what do you have? A very happy child. He was hilarious and I hate to admit this but I actually laughed so hard I had to change out of my jeans (stupid kegals). TMI, I know.

He was hilarious. He could not understand what happens to the balloons after I threw and popped them. He laughed and laughed and then when I popped it, he would get this concerned look on his face and say, "Baoon" over and over. It was so funny. I didn't have the heart to stop playing with them so when it was bath time, we took the fun to the tub. He loved it. It made me remember an article I read about making your toddler's day. I thought I would read it and it would give me this amazing guideline to make your child happy. Nope. Just things like dancing with them, playing, reading, letting them cook with you, etc, etc, etc. It's so easy to make their day. A doctor told me once, when they're small their problems are small and when their big their problems are big. It's true. Every single day, I have to choose my battles and I have to admit, most of the time, I don't even feel like battling. I guess that might mean Sean is spoiled're only young once! LOVE HIM!

These are my boys! They are the greatest. I absolutely adore them. I can't get enough of Seanie and his high strung, anti-social, funny personality and I just can cuddle and kiss Jakey all day long!

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Feelin Gifty

Feeling Gifty

I've seen this on several other blogs, but I was FINALLY one of the first 5 people to respond to one, so now I must post it on my own blog to keep it going. Here goes...

**The first five people to respond to this post will get something made by me. Just for you.**

Now I'm not sure if the above offer really even excites anybody because, let's face it; I'm not the most crafty person out there. BUT I am pretty good and stealing other people's crafty ideas and making them my own. With that being said, here's how this dealio works:

This offer does have some restrictions and limitations so please read carefully.

1. I get to choose what I make for you.
2. No returns or exchanges.
3. I make no guarantees that you will like it. (although I hope you do!)
4. Your creation will be just for you. It's not gonna say "This book belongs to _____" with some random kid's name scribbled in.
5. It'll be done this year (2009).
6. You have no clue what it's going to be. It may be a poem (most likely not) or a painting (we'll see) or something edible (like cookies or something). You'll just have to wait to find out. But I will promise you this: It will be something I would want, and something I will be proud to say I made, which means no crappy re-gifts. You're welcome.

The catch? In order to qualify, you must not only be one of the first 5 people to respond, you must also pay it forward and post this offer onto a blog/Facebook page of your own and make 5 things for the first 5 people to respond to your post.

Sounds easy enough, right? That's what I thought.

Now we wait to see who the lucky victims, I mean winners are.


Big Mistake, HUGE

I went to a flossy flossy dinner w/ Mike last night. It was an honors dinner. Mike went for free, but I had to pay. It was in the Grand Hotel. I always feel like Julia Roberts in "Pretty Woman" not knowing which fork to use, worrying about how I sit, stand, talk, yada yada yada! Would've rather gone to Cafe Rio!

Side note: Jake's blessing pictures and Mike's graduation pictures are coming!

Friday, May 8, 2009

Nothing a Diet Mt. Dew Can't Fix

I need to vent. Feel free to just not read this post as it will be depressing and unfiltered...
I feel so lonely! I have tons of people around me (benefit of living in a condo!) and I still feel this way. My best friend is moving and though I know that we will remain friends, it will never be the same. I have always struggled with getting close to people. I have a fear that they will not truly accept me or they will eventually leave so I usually close myself off or just remain "on the surface" with most people. Unfortunately, you can't go throughout life this way and change inevitably happens. I think this is why I had a hard time graduating high school, getting married, moving to/from places, and change in general. I'm sure no one likes change and everyone feels lonely at times. Instead of feeling sorry for myself, I should reach out to people and help them to feel loved.

It's my moms birthday today. She is amazing. I remember when she was diagnosed with breast cancer the first time. I felt such amazing regret. I felt regret for not being there for her as much as I should have been, not telling her every single day what an amazing person she is and how much I love her, and taking her for granted so many times. After that experience, I truly did have a change of heart. I want my family and friends to know how much they mean to me. I try to tell them often but of course, I don't tell them enough. I am so blessed. My moms hugs are so comforting...I want one right now:) Every time I have a bad day and I tell her about it, I swear she has some magical powers, because I instantly feel better. She has had a tough life and I have yet to hear her feel sorry for herself. She turns 64 today! She is truly the epitome of strength and love. I love her.

I watched "Marley and Me" the other day and bawled like a baby. I cried like I had just lost Bruno all over again. All I could do was cry. I managed to choke out the words, "I never told Bruno he was a good dog." Mike claims I did but I have no recollection of this. If I ever have another dog, he will KNOW he is a good dog.

I hope at the age of 64 (hopefully sooner) I will learn to love myself, accept change, embrace change, live life to the fullest, leave no regrets, leave no one unknowing of my love for them!

Good night:)